Reunion with Josh

Transcript

Welcome to the Pineapple Pinup, The Hot Wife Life. On today's episode, I'm going to talk about a reunion date with Josh. I am going to talk about some things that are happening in my world, and I'm going to take a listener question. I finally got together with Josh. It has been so long.

It has been such a long freaking road to get to this point, to get to the point where we had, we were able to connect, be at the same place at the same time, um, without any interruptions on my side, because mostly I, I will admit it has been mostly my problem, um, between having, like I had family stuff going on. I had contractors in my house constantly. I had, it was just not great timing every single time we tried to get together. And it was getting to the point where it was a little bit like, okay, passing ships, like waving at each other from the opposite ends of the bay.

And finally, we were able to get back to us and it's important to realize that sometimes there are other things that are going to take priority over your lifestyle stuff and there are times when it's just not going to work out either on their side or on your side, and that's okay. We weren't flaking on one another. We weren't setting up dates and then canceling them. We were literally trying to make dates, and they just weren't working.

And finally, we got to the point where, so he contacted me after he got off work and mind you he is going to have a lot more time because as we move into the colder months a lot of the stuff that guys are doing is coming to basically a standstill so it's going to be minimal stuff that he has to do so he's going to have a lot more time for me and that's great there are times when things just aren't happening um that life is getting in the way that there are contractors and children and family obligations and illnesses that are going to prevent lifestyle from happening.

And that had happened to Josh and I for months. And we finally were able to reconnect in a one-on-one date. Because even if we play at parties or we play in these random times that are not us, it's not the same as the one-on-one dates. It's not the same level of talking. It's not the same level of commingling. It's just not the same. And for him, it has been months since he and I have seen each other. It has literally been like ships passing in the night, waving at each other from the opposite sides of the bay. It has not been a real connection in a long time.

So he finally was able to catch me on a day when I was able to meet with him. I was able to get together with him and he went home, showered and came over. We played. And when we played, he was so eager for me. He was so ready for me. And that goes both ways. I was also very ready and very eager. And he came in and it was like, he wanted to go down on me and he wanted to go down on me and make me remember what it was that he gave me. And I was like, all right, then here we go, yo. And he very much, like, got me really, really close.

And he is very diligent but he's missing one aspect to push me over the edge and that's fingers guys come on if you're going to go down remember you have other things than just your tongue and the combination of fingers and tongue really, really do it for me. Anyway, not the point, but he was missing one crucial point. And so I didn't actually get off, but I was so ready. I was so ready for him. And when we finally fucked, it was spectacular. I mean, it was the fountains of Bellagio. It was lights and music and it was a lot. It was so much fun.

And he was eager to prove that I missed him, which he didn't need to because I did and I told him I did, but he was so eager to prove to me that I missed him, to prove to me that I needed to be more in touch with getting together with him. I needed to be more available because I was missing out on some really good dick. And he wanted me to walk away knowing that I needed to have that dick more.

And he did did it was one of those really good sessions where there is a lot of position changes and eye contact and petting and you know deep like, here's your toy, use your wand, you know, all of the things that make a really great session explosive. We played for over an hour and it was magic. And my husband came home in the middle, and he was like, hey, guys. And I, of course, did the things. I sent my husband the photos, and I told him, hey, I've got somebody coming over today.

And now my husband's super busy at work, so my ability to flirt with him while he's at work is not as much as I would like. And I need to do it more, but I feel guilty intruding on his day, which is not something that I should ever feel because here's the deal. My husband and I both know that if he does not have time to respond, he won't respond. If he does not have time to play, he just won't play.

He won't engage, which is great because I think that it's important for you to know where your limits are and be like, can't right now, or just know that it's there, it's been read and and it's okay for him not to respond back to me. That is my understanding. That is how I go through my world. I go through my world knowing that there are times when I am not going to be able to be his priority. He's got other things that are pulling at his attention. And that's fine because he has given those hours to someone else in exchange for a paycheck.

And that, for me, is an understandable adult reaction to the world. So I'm fine. I'm good. but he but i'm i want to more. I want to be better at that aspect of it. So when I know Josh is coming and I know that this is all moving forward, sending him the videos, sending him the pictures of me getting ready, sending him the options of what I should wear. And we did that. And for some reason in every one of the photos, my face was doing something weird, like looking the wrong way or having this weird, funky face on, just something.

And one of those things where he's like, I can't know sharing that photo. So it limits what he's able to do. So, and he loves to play and play with me and then share that play with other people um with our vet life profile, which is great. And it allows him to work on both sides of his attraction, work on both sides of his arousal, because he is aroused by other people looking at me and he is aroused by me engaging him in what I'm doing.

So those two things in combination make for a really, really stiff day at work, which I'm all for, because as far as I'm concerned, I like it when he's a little bit tortured, when he's a little bit, not a lot, just a little bit tortured, a little bit angsty, a little bit eager, a little bit hungry. I like that. I like that for him. And I like that for me. And I like that for our relationship. So that is so good. But he came over and it was camping at the shores of Lake Wanna Come Fuck Me for sure. It was such a mess.

It was such a mess that I ended up having, like, it was, thank God my waterproof blanket was down. Thank God that I had this thing, because otherwise my husband and I were going to have to sleep in another room. It was, it was crazy. But it was one of those things where, and we actually caught this moment on film where I, he pulled out at exactly the moment and I sprayed up all over him, landed on me, soaked my arm. It was just everywhere and we caught it on film and it was kind of, it was kind of interesting and kind of hot. But it was, it's really, I don't know. It's good to be back.

That's all I'm going to say. And considering that my horoscope just told me that sexy is a state of mind, I'm all in. I am all in on the sexy today. I am ready for the sexy day and the sexy adventure. And I'm a new listener, and I'd love to discuss my husband's kink of high heels. I've gotten into wearing them into bed more, and it drives him nuts. It's actually got him pondering being a stag and watch me get fucked while wearing them. My question is, do you wear heels when playing at parties? Will your husband make you get dressed in whatever sexy outfit you wore when he reclaims you?

Last question. Are there more men out there that have a kink or fetish for high heels? I'm going to start with the last one, with the last question she asked first, because I think that it is probably the best place to start. Yes. Oh my God. There are so many men out there who have shoe fetishesishes foot fetishes the um arch of your foot in a high heel fetish there is something very sexy and um it's really funny because i've gotten to an age where i have listed all of my high heels by the length of time that i can wear them these are my two two hour heels. These are my 30 minute heels.

These are my six second heels. These are literally only good for walking from here to the bed and then they become handles. The thing is, is that high heels are definitely one of those fetishes, one of those kinks. A lot like silk stockings. They're one of those things that it doesn't even matter if you have a fetish for it. There's something truly ingrained in our societal thought process that makes those things extraordinarily sexy and arousing.

Whether you wear them into bed, or whether you wear them to the bed, or whether you wear them just to take a quick photo, there's something about them that speaks to not only the male mind, but also the female mind. It speaks to a little bit of female power. It speaks to a little bit of female presentation. It speaks to a little bit of sexy for the sake of sexy. Personally, I have gotten to an age and a size where high heels are very, very, they're a rough hang for me. They're one of those things, I had ankle surgery and I wasn't allowed to wear them.

And so I've kind of maladapted my feet for them. So I need to work myself back into them because they are important. They are something that you should be. There's something that should be in your arsenal. And I'm not saying that because women have to dress up a certain way. I'm saying that because there is something about owning every aspect of your sexuality and the way you want to be presented sexually. And I love them.

I personally, I had a shoe collection that was over 150 pairs of completely ill-advised high heels from a pair of high-heeled saddle shoes to a pair of six inch bedazzled, literally six second shoes that I could literally wear from the closet to the bed. And then they became handles. Something for him to hold on to while he fucked me hard. And the fact is, is that putting yourself into these shoes, putting yourself into these shoes that are literally designed to pop your calf muscle and stick your ass out and make your boobs like stand proud.

Something about wearing the shoes that are designed to create the female form that everyone understands is a sexual being. Thank you. that are designed to create the female form that everyone understands is a sexual being is really, really kind of hot. And I myself fall victim to this shoe fetish. I myself am a huge fan of the shoes. Unable to wear them for the most part, but I will get back there. So then let me see. I don't wear high heels to the parties because of said problems. I have worn them for my husband and he does really enjoy it when I use an entire outfit.

My husband and I went to a glory hole, and I dressed to the fucking nines. I had on a satin red blouse, a black pencil skirt, and a pair of red and black high heels that strapped around my ankle and I'm really sorry but an ankle strap on a high heel is to me one of the sexiest fucking things I'm a huge fan of the um of the anything that wraps around your calf for me that is just fucking hot it looks like your feet are in bond And I, I don't know what it is, but that shit turns me on like fucking hell.

And so yes, high heel wearing, I want, the more I talk about it, the more I want to go put on a pair right now. It is, to me, one of the great things about what we have to offer. It's one of the great things about how we have used the sexual image of a woman to invoke a power move because CEOs wear high heels. It makes them taller. It puts them more in control. It puts them more into the height of a man. And it is something that is, there are, there's power dynamics and there's fuck me dynamics and there are fuck me pumps.

And, you know, there's so many different words for all of these shoes, for all of these footwear that just make them so incredibly erotic. And I, myself, I don't know if this is an answer to your question, but holy shit, man, I fucking love them. A fresh pedicure with peep-toed pumps, four-inch heel, silk stockings. I'm really sorry, but I'm going off on a tangent, but it was very nice of my listener to send me that question, but she has more. Um, has your BDSM kink been satisfied? Tell you what, I'm going to go into that in the next segment.

All right, so my BDSM kink has taken me down a couple of terrible paths. I was so interested in this BDSM kink that I actually put myself in a position to be sexually blackmailed to be put in this arena where somebody had damaging, quote unquote, photos of me. They had damaging images and videos of me, and they were going to use them to get me to service them sexually. And if I didn't, they were going to expose me to service them sexually. And if I didn't, they were going to expose me. And this went on for years. This has been an ongoing, and he recently came back and started doing it again.

And he is basically a stalker at this point. Thank you. And he is basically a stalker at this point My desire for BDSM is something that I am now a little afraid of Believe me, I still think about it and I still want it and I still like it, but I'm scared now. I'm scared of, I definitely will never do it via the internet again. I will never, I will never do that again. I will never become an online anything for anyone ever again. It is too insane. It is too much. It is too out of control.

And so because of the fact that this guy turned into a stalker, and I mean, when I say a stalker, I literally, he's come, he's written on my car, he's broken into my house, he's, you know, threatened my family, like, it's become a, it's been a real thing. It's been a real disaster, if you will. And putting myself in this online domination thing was probably one of the worst mistakes I've ever made. And the only way that I was able to stop it, or at least put it on pause, was brutal honesty. Because here's the facts.

I'm letting you know that there's a guy out there who has things, who has embarrassing photos of me, who has embarrassing videos of me, who has sexually explicit shit of me. And he is using that to manipulate me into physical acts, which, okay. Um, what's the big deal? The thing is, is though, like I will get into physical acts with whomever, but I will not get into physical acts with this idiot. Because here's the deal. If you are using your power, your perceived power to damage someone, then you are not a dom, you are a bully.

If somebody has given you submission and they have done things that you requested of them and then you turn around and use it as blackmail, that is not domination, that is sexual blackmail. And the thing is, is that I have learned lessons from doing this bullshit, from trying to find ways to express this side of myself. I have learned lessons. And this is one thing I will tell any woman out there. There is a difference between a domination dominant, a daddy dominant, a whatever dominant, and a bully and a little boy with anger issues.

Um, when somebody throws a tantrum because they're not getting what they want or they're crossing boundaries, you said no. And they are forcing you into situations. That is not your consent. That is not your full yes. That is not your full participation. And I know, like, here's the deal. I safe worded. I used my safe word. I said no. And then that led to this behavior. Here we go. I safe worded. I used my safe word. I said no. And then that led to this behavior. This was not something that ever did what it was supposed to do. It was never the domination that I needed.

It was never the domination that I wanted. It was never something that lived up to the expectations I had. Because in my feeble understanding, domination is not about the dominant getting what they want. It is about the dominant forcing the submissive to be inside of themselves, inside of their brain, inside of their body, inside of, and pushing those boundaries until the experience is heightened to the point that it is explosive for both. Domination is about pushing the submissive's boundaries to create higher levels of arousal. That does not mean the dom gets nothing out of it.

But here's the thing. The person who controls the arousal. That does not mean the dom gets nothing out of it, but here's the thing. The person who controls the arousal controls the scene. Okay.

So if the submissive is controlling the arousal, they are topping from the bottom the dominant needs to be the one who's controlling the arousal okay and forcing the arousal up or whatever so when you have somebody who's literally there just to get his dick down your throat and it's not doing what it needs to do for you the submissive you need to save for it you need to get out this is not something that but if but i will say that there's something very arousing about being in that position and having somebody shove their dick straight down your throat.

There's something very arousing about that. But if it's not working, if it's not working because something this idiot is doing or saying or, you know, then you need to get yourself out of the situation. the thing is is that there's domination and then there's bullying and not being able to tell the difference is going to get you into a world of hurt. And unfortunately, this person did so much damage to my trust that I'm not sure if I'm ever going to be able to have my domination fantasies fulfilled. And I'd really like them to be.

I'd really like to be in a position where I can explore my submissive side, take those sexual orders and really feel my body being truly sexually explosive. I want, there's so many things that I can, And I could go for days about domination, but I'm not going to because I'm afraid of what has transpired. I'm afraid of myself and trusting myself to give my submission correctly and trusting the person who I'm giving it to, to care for it correctly. I know for damn sure I'd never get into anything online again. If I ever do domination again, it's going to be face-to-face.

It will never be a text exchange. It will never, ever be showing my submission through photographs or through homemade videos. It will never ever be showing my submission through photographs or through homemade videos. It will never be that again. And that is because of the fact, unless it's like a three-way with my husband already involved in the whole thing, then maybe. Because here's the thing. I took away his power by being honest, by saying, I did this really stupid shit. And I told my husband, I did this really stupid shit. He's got so many photos of me.

He's got so many small videos of me and he's got pages and pages of text messages that he was engaging me through. And I am going to put this out because not only is it mortifying that I was so incredibly stupid, but it's also something that I think other people need to hear. I want to experience BDSM. I want to experience domination and submission. I want to move into that aspect in that realm. But I am so gun-shy now because I mistook domination when it was bullying. I saw a dom and got a tantrum-throwing toddler I'll see you next time. I saw a dom and got a tantrum-throwing toddler.

And he wasn't a toddler. He was obviously old enough to be played with. But the point is, is that he reacted like a fucking toddler every single time things didn't go his way. And that's not domination. That is a petulant little man child. So I am hesitant. And I am a little hurt. And I'm a lot scared. This person has made it a point to terrorize me a little bit. And so for me, no, I have not experienced domination. I have experienced something that was faux and I thought and I was wrong. so that is my, that's kind of a PSA slash fantasy. I want it. Yes, I do.

I would love to be dominated in a way that is thoughtful of the gift of submission. I would love to be dominated in that way. I would love to have that full exchange of being able to give my trust and have my trust not squashed like a goddamn bug. I'm sorry. But it's true. That's what I want. And to answer your question? No, no, I haven't. I haven sorry. That was, um, but it's true. That's what I want. And, um, to answer your question, no, no, I haven't. I haven't. One day. thank you for joining me today on the Pineapple Pinup, The Hot Wife Life. I really hope that you got something out of it.

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