Episode 5: Trouble in Paradise

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I'm just an average guy in the swinger lifestyle who likes to share his experiences. This podcast is for informational and the swinger lifestyle, all from a male perspective. Mine. Yeah, I'm Evan. I'm one half of a lifestyle couple, the other half being my wife, Eva. Now, before I go any further, I just want to let everyone know that I'm a teacher and I'm on spring break right now. So I'm putting out several episodes within a short amount of time, you know, while I have the time to record them.

So once I get these episodes out, I do plan on spacing them out and creating kind of like a a regular schedule i'll i'll probably start publishing episodes you know maybe once every other week something like that but but right now i just wanted to kind of get a foundation built for the podcast and have some episodes kind of in the bank so new listeners can hop on and you know kind of see what this is all about but back to me and Eva at the time of this recording we are rapidly approaching the three-year anniversary of entering the lifestyle we are having the time of our lives who would have thought we would be having more fun in our 40s than ever before?

But admittedly, we occasionally do hit a bump in the road. And I think that's kind of a given in the lifestyle. You know, not every experience is going to go perfectly. So that's what this episode is going to be about. Something that didn't go quite smoothly for us within our first six or seven months in the lifestyle. And so first, I think I should give you some background information about Eva and myself. So I was listening to another podcast. It's called The Accidental Swingers, and it is fantastic. I highly recommend it.

And one of the things that they said that really hit home for me is that there are two types of swingers. There's social swingers, and then there's sexual swingers. Now, social swingers, they prioritize the social aspect of swinging. They want to go on dates, spend time with other couples. Chemistry is of the utmost importance to them. You know, it's more of a friends with benefits type of situation.

Now, sexual swingers, they just want to to have sex they are willing to just meet and fuck a lot of sexual swingers are known as what's called bed hoppers they'll just hop into bed with anyone and everyone just to get laid now eva is a complete social swinger she wants or even needs Thank you. Now, Eva is a complete social swinger. She wants or even needs the social side, the chemistry side. She doesn't like to play on the first date. At the time of this recording, we have only played with one couple on the first date.

And there were circumstances for that which made it make sense for us to do and maybe I'll elaborate on that in a future episode but anyway as for me I am somewhere in between a social and a sexual swinger I enjoy both you know I I love having friends with benefits. And in fact, I would probably say I lean more to the social side of it. You know, I love hanging out. I love going on dates. But at the same time, if I met someone and there was immediate mutual attraction, I would have no issue whatsoever with having sex with her right then and there. Because of this, I follow Eva's lead.

It is important to never intentionally do something to make your partner uncomfortable. I mean, that's just common sense, right? So Eva does not want to meet and fuck so we don't meet and fuck um her rule is that we don't play on the first date so i just go with that you know um if if she ever said to me you know if we're at like a a party or something and she, you know, thinks differently, then I'm all in. But as we stand now, I just follow her lead with that. Another difference between us is that I love the thrill of meeting and courting someone new, like a new couple.

It's adventurous and exciting to me. Eva, on the other hand, she'd just be happy as a clam if we just stuck with some of the quote-unquote regulars that we've met in the lifestyle, you know, the friends with benefits that we've made along the way. So we have some differences, and it is important to establish kind of a middle ground to make it work. You know, we should both be happy, and there needs to be some bend or some flexibility from both of us so that we can continue enjoying the lifestyle to the extent that we do. And Eva and I have done a great job with that, at least I think.

I am so thankful to be in the lifestyle and feel that we only do things that we are both 100% on board with respect and comfort comfort are top priorities, both between us and with the other couples that we meet. And sometimes that's hard because, you know, every couple can have different rules and different comfort levels. You know, they're in the lifestyle for different things. You know, there are full-swap couples and soft-swap couples. There are couples who only want parallel play or only want to watch, and some only want to be watched.

Some couples only play together, and some allow separate play. Then you have, you know, couples that have a bisexual person and some do not. Some like toys, some don't. Some are interested in anal play and some, you know, complete, keep that completely off limits.

And then there's even couples that, uh, you know, that, that say, uh, condomsoms only or believe it or not there's some couples that we've met who absolutely insist that condoms not be worn you know and there's others who are into bondage and pain and uh into all this other kinky stuff so when someone says that they're in the lifestyle, that encompasses a very broad spectrum. And there are just so many different levels of comfort and expectations and desires. And it's just important to respect those differences.

And it also sometimes makes it an adventure in itself, finding a compatible couple. And that brings me to our next adventure. If you listened to my last episode, you may remember me mentioning that I received an interesting text while I was at the Champagne Hotel takeover in Cincinnati. Well, allow me to explain what happened.

Somewhere around August, September, I came across the profile of a woman on one of the apps I was using, and I can't remember which one, and she was absolutely stunningly beautiful, like out of my league beautiful, and I can't remember what else about her profile attracted me but I do remember she was about 10 years younger than me a little more actually I think now that didn't really attract me more to her just just something I remember from her profile but totally 100% out of my league and the way these apps work is that if you see a profile you're interested in you hit the like button and if that person happens to like you back then it's a match and you can start chatting with them well she liked me back i was very pleasantly surprised.

She was from a city called Hamilton, or the Hamilton area, so I secretly gave her a nickname, and I called her the Hamilton hottie. We began chatting a lot, and I very quickly realized that I was not just attracted to this girl's appearance. She was just super freaking cool. She had an amazing personality, at least from what I could tell from texting. And she was an amazing conversationalist. She just seemed to be the complete package.

She was very intelligent, just so much fun to talk to and of course hot as fuck uh she was she was what was called or what is called a demisexual which means if you don't know that uh she's only attracted to people with whom she shares an emotional bond. So that was something new, something different, and just something I found very interesting. Also something that was new and interesting was that her and her husband practiced ethical non-monogamy. They could and would play separately.

All new stuff for me at the time, because when I started chatting with her, which was, you know, like I said, August, September-ish, Eva and I had only been in the lifestyle for around three months, I'd say. Well, Hamilton Hottie and I were hitting it off big time. Then, suddenly, the message is completely stopped. In fact, her profile was deleted on the app that we used to communicate. It was completely gone. It was like she ceased to exist. Now, I'm not going to lie, I was a little broken up about it. She and I seemed to, to have this, this real, this real connection.

And I found that I really missed chatting with her. She was unlike anybody else I had ever chatted with in the lifestyle. She was different. And we just, like I said, we just had this connection that I can't really explain. What I did next was either incredibly romantic or incredibly stupid. Or both. And maybe even a little stalkerish and creepy. But hopefully, listeners, you will understand that I had no malicious intent here. I knew her first name.

And at some point, she had told me her husband's first name, and I knew she was from the Hamilton area, so I did a quick Google search and quite easily found her last name.

so then I hopped on Facebook and sure enough I found her so I decided to send her a message so I know that sounds kind of stalkerish but let me explain so I was I got on Facebook and I sent her a message and I included in that message you know how I tracked her down I wanted to be very upfront and honest and I told her that I really enjoyed our conversations, and I'm not sure what happened, but if I said something that hurt or offended, I just wanted to apologize, and I said that I was not a stalker, and she would never hear from me again if she didn't respond, and that she could block me, and I promised that that would be the end of it.

So, see, I told you, I'm not a stalker. To my pleasant surprise, she responded and was not upset that I tracked her down. She said she actually found it a little romantic and sweet that I did that. Thankfully. I mean, looking back, that could have taken a turn for the worse. And, you know, I probably would never do that again. Anyway, she explained that it was nothing I did. She was dealing with some stuff and decided she wanted to take a step back from the lifestyle. I was, of course, disappointed, but I understood, you know. And I am a man of my word.

And I told her that the ball was in her court. I would never text her again, but if she ever wanted to chat with me again, she now had me on Facebook messenger. And that was that, like I said, I'm a man of my word. Okay. I am not a stalker. Um, I, I didn't text her again. I hoped and hoped that she would reach out to me again, but she didn't until a month or two later at the Halloween hotel takeover. I'll never forget.

I was on the dance floor with eva and my phone buzzed and to my complete ecstatic shock it was hamilton hottie i showed eva my phone and she gave me a surprised uh good for you you know expression on her face she knew how much i enjoyed talking with her and so so she was kind of happy for me. And the message was, was just, uh, you know, hi, how you've been thing, but it meant she was ready to chat again. And I was over the moon. I was already having fun at the hotel takeover, but, but this put me on cloud nine.

So after the hotel takeover, uh, she and I began chatting again and cloud nine definitely had a new resident things were moving swimmingly is the word i'll use they were they were great uh i i had told her the ball was in her court and it stayed in her court i wasn't going to to make a move so to speak all right um i was you know letting her move at her own pace Thank you. I wasn't going to make a move, so to speak, all right? I was, you know, letting her move at her own pace. And thankfully, she actually made a move. She said her and her husband wanted to meet us in person.

Now, quick side note here. Uh, her husband has red hair and eva is not usually into guys with red hair due to personal reasons that i won't go into but but she also finds a good sense of humor and a good personality more attractive than than physical appearance so she was still willing to meet Hamilton Hottie's husband or Triple H as I nicknamed him now I know Hamilton Hottie would have met me separately but at this point in Eva and I's journey separate play was not on the table so if this was going to happen she had to be involved too and she had to be interested in the dude.

So we met at a restaurant and things went very well. I was just absolutely captivated by this woman's beauty and, and her intelligence and her personality. Uh, she was a, she was a successful, educated, professional, and, you know, very cultured, and of course she was drop-dead gorgeous. So I thought there was no way, after seeing me in person, she would ever want anything more. I was wrong. She informed me over text message that she and her husband had a great great time and that she was very attracted to me. My heart skipped about five beats when she wrote that. I was just I was so happy.

I could not wait to see her again. Now, this was all happening somewhere around late November of 2021. And we ended up scheduling a date for some time in December. In the meantime she and I kept chatting and things they got hot you know we kept our regular good vanilla conversation but some of it shifted to more naughty more sexually sexually explicit talk. You know, she talked about how she couldn't wait to take my dick for a ride. And how after round one of sex, she would get me going again for round two. Like, very confident. So I was loving every second of this.

I managed to find the most attractive woman possible on one of these apps and for some reason she was into me. Now at this time Eva and Triple H, her husband, they started chatting too and they had all kinds of sexy talk. Eva was getting all turned on by their conversations and having a ton of fun. So a sexy talk. Eva was getting all turned on by their conversations and having a ton of fun. So sometime in December 2021, we rented an Airbnb and met for an evening of games and drinks, you know, and hopefully more. The house that we rented had two floors.

There were a couple of nice bedrooms on the main floor then there was a game room in the basement with not really a game room but kind of like a a social area in the basement um and then there were some other bedrooms off of that in the basement so we spent most of the evening in the basement room where there was a large like dining room table set up now eva and i i'm not sure if i mentioned this before but uh yeah i have i have i definitely mentioned this before we are board game nerds and we kind of insisted on playing some games with them while we talked and drink we found it to be you know we find that to be kind of a an icebreaker of sorts and just kind of a way to you know kind of get comfortable with everybody so there were some things to note that occurred during this time Eva sat right next to triple h i sat next to double, but she was on the end of the table and I was on the side.

And the way the table was designed, I couldn't really easily have any physical interaction with her. You know, I wanted to like put my hand on her thigh or have my leg touch hers, but it didn't really work out that you know I touched her arm casually a few times but that was all the contact we had so it was difficult for me to get a good feel for where the night was headed but Eva was pulling out all the stops partly through the through the evening, she changed into some sexy lingerie. And at some point, she put her legs across Triple H's lap. But Triple H seemed very, very shy.

And he didn't really flirt with her or engage in any of the physical contact that Eva was trying to initiate so that's something to note another huge item to note is that during our conversations Hamilton Hottie told us about an affair she had with a married man she worked with she said it was awkward at this you know, right now while we were sitting at that table because she was talking openly with me in front of Eva and she was so used to preserving the secret around her work lover's wife. So here she was around my wife and she didn't have to preserve any secrets. She could just be open.

So... the secret around her work lover's wife so here she was around my wife and she didn't have to preserve any secrets she could just be open so that story plays a huge part in how this experience ended days later eva told me she wished she called it at night at that point you know took the loss on the rental and just ended the evening she was made very uncomfortable because of what she just heard she suddenly became worried that Hamilton Hottie was was like a like a homewrecker and wanted to steal me away as like her boyfriend but she knew how much I wanted her and didn't speak up.

So let me kind of jump to the action here. Hamilton Hottie went upstairs to get something, and I don't remember what. And I had to go upstairs to the kitchen for something. When I returned to the basement eva and triple h had already gone to the bedroom to play so you know that was a little surprising but uh this was it you know i went back upstairs and i found hamilton hottie in one of the bedrooms and i i really don't remember what she was still doing in there. But I said something like, well, Eva and your husband moved things to the bedroom, so I guess you're stuck with me now.

It did not take long. We went from hardly touching all evening to full-blown all over each other in a matter of seconds the clothes came off so fast and she hopped on top of me and i was inside her in a matter of seconds okay excuse me not a whole lot of foreplay just raw passion. I imagined sex with her would be amazing, but it exceeded anything I could have possibly imagined. She was enthusiastic and she was vocal, like really, really loud. And she talked dirty. Now, Eva isn't very vocal at all and doesn't say much during sex. But Hamilton Hottie said things like, fuck me a lot.

And that just turned me the hell on. We were interrupted by a knock on our door at one point.

And Eva told me through the door, it was she said check your phone I was distracted so I didn't realize she was texting me I didn't hear my phone buzzing and she was asking me if it was okay if we did not use condoms well she could have asked me for anything in that moment and I would have totally agreed to it but I was even more excited now because condoms suck I get it they're a necessity in the lifestyle but they do suck now it probably it probably wasn't a wise decision playing with a couple for the first time and not using condoms and it's something Eva and I discussed in the future but in the moment I was comfortable saying that condoms were not necessary she assured me there was no cause for concern meaning no STDs and I believed her you know I mean she was smart intelligent professional in the medical field I had no reason to to think she was lying so i told you it was fine and i guess triple h was maybe having a little bit of trouble performing or finishing uh so she wanted to just make sure it was okay with me if she told him he didn't have to use one and thought that would help so i was fine with it i.

I mean, I whipped the one I was using off so quickly, trust me. And we continued, uh, to be honest and frank here to this day, I have never been ridden by a woman as well as she rode me.

She was just absolutely amazing in every way and to this date I would still call it the the best sex I've ever had outside of sex with my wife now I finished at one point and we just laid on the bed naked talking and laughing and just having a grand old time i was just just total heaven and i figured eva was having just as much fun in the basement spoiler alert she was not it was during this time that i discovered that my penis was not below average in size, like I thought. Actually, I probably thought it was average.

According to Hamilton Hottie, I'll never forget this, she said I was well above average. She said, I believe her words were, it's like you have a third arm down there. So that was, that was pretty funny in it. And it was just a major boost of my self-confidence. Hey, you know, I'm a, I'm a guy. Okay. We think about these things. So after talking for a while, uh, my dick got hard again and we went to round two and I just, I can't even put into words how much fun I had, you know, how much I liked this girl. She was a spitfire in bed and I was just loving every second of it.

When round two was ending, I got another text from Eva asking if we were done so So it was time to regroup. So we went downstairs, exchanged some hugs and pleasantries, and then went to our bedrooms with our spouses. Now, Eva and I, we stayed in the basement bedroom, and Hamilton, Heidi, and her husband went back upstairs. So it was reclaimed sex time. God, I love reclaimed sex. This time we had it while we heard Hamilton Hottie and her husband going at it in the upstairs bedroom. Now remember, I told you how loud and vocal she was. So that was pretty hot too. And that was it for the night.

You know, we got up in the morning expecting to go out to breakfast with them but eva was pretty slow getting moving in the morning as she usually is i love you honey just so you know uh so they went off without us and that's when the shit hit the fan so we were cleaning up making sure the airbnb was in tip-top shape and you know checking for items that we might have missed you know i'd hate for the owners to find a condom wrapper on the floor or anything you know we like to be as respectful of other people's property as possible so when we were double checking the room where hamilton hottie and i played eva lost it She just burst into tears, and that's when it all came out.

First of all, she was upset that we ended up playing in separate rooms. She did not like that at all. Up until this point, we'd always played in the same room, so that hit her hard. Now, I will say this, that that is no longer a concrete rule we have. You know, things change, things evolve in the lifestyle. But this time, this was very hard for Eva to take.

You know, she agreed to try it, you know, when it kind of came up, but she just decided it was not something she enjoyed secondly she was still upset with what hamilton hottie said about the affair now again at the time we were still fairly new to the lifestyle and eva was worried that at least i think that that she was going to steal me away that she was this this homewrecker and that she was going to pull me away from her and ruin our marriage now she absolutely does not feel that way about her anymore okay but again we were new in the lifestyle and was when we were still learning so but again that she does not feel that way anymore things have changed thirdly she did not have a good time with triple h there was just no chemistry according to her all right from their flirtatious chats that they had she assumed that that he was more of an outgoing person and in reality he was he was just very quiet and reserved.

And, uh, she described him as a completely different person in person than the one she had been texting with for a while. Um, that was another reason why she didn't like being in separate rooms. Uh, she didn't have an out, you know, uh, he, he was, you know, She said he was a nice enough guy you know great guy but she just didn't have any chemistry with him she felt there was no chemistry so um eva ended up ghosting him which i wish she didn't do but it was a difficult situation for her and that's the way she felt was the best way to handle it. So she just stopped talking to him completely.

So all these emotions came out and to be honest, I thought maybe we were done completely with the lifestyle, with how upset Eva got. When we got home, she made me tell Hamilton Hottie that we were no longer interested in getting together again. And it did not go over well with her either. You know, she was upset, and rightfully so. She accused me of just wanting sex from her. And I guess insinuating that I faked the emotional connection I felt with her. Not true, obviously. And I explained that.

And I think with what we were saying, she, she kind of felt attacked and things did not end well, needless to say. um after a little bit of back and forth uh it became friendly enough and you know we kind of ended things on on decent terms um she did kind of hint that she would have an affair with me if I wanted to but I obviously wasn't going to risk my marriage doing something like that as much as I really wanted to be with her again but uh things pretty, things pretty much ended there. You know, Eva didn't even want me texting with her anymore. So about a year and a half went by. All right.

And most of, most of which didn't pass without me thinking about her almost every day i mean she had such a profound effect on me now from this experience eva and i learned a lot so yes it was a tough situation that ended poorly but sometimes you have to go through the rough stuff to come out cleaner on the other side. I think that's a Shawshank reference. We learned that separate rooms was not for us. Well, you know, not for Eva. You know, I was always fine with it, but I always want her to be comfortable. And again, that rule has changed, which I hope to tell you about in the future.

but we were reminded that people might not, who might not be who they seem to be over messaging. And it takes an in-person meeting or meetings to really get to know a person. So that my friends was our first rough patch in the lifestyle like really rough patch I just hate thinking back to how upset Eva was it was just so painful for both of us and we would be fools if we thought everything would go perfectly throughout our journey in the lifestyle and they they didn't, but as everything in the lifestyle seems to do, it just made our marriage ultimately stronger.

Now, I've been doing these episodes chronologically, but I have to fast forward to present day and what transpired in the two years since this incident. Hamilton Hottie and I didn't talk again after all that happened for about a year and a half. Then suddenly, out of the blue, she texted me just to say hi. Now, a lot changed in that year and a half time frame. We had a lot more experiences. Eva and I even played separately, and we were much more comfortable in the lifestyle.

So when she texted me, I told her what was up with me lately, but then I forget how it came up, but I let her know that Eva was now fine with me chatting with her and even fine with me seeing her occasionally, separately. I mean, like I said, things changed and, you know, Eva changed. She changed her opinion about the whole situation. So I explained that I wanted to contact her at some point during all this, but I didn't know how she would take it. So I held back and I don't think Hamilton Hottie was expecting any of this, but it was nice to chat with her again. So nice.

I wanted to see her again so badly. so over the summer of 2023 I had asked her to meet me for lunch one day no expectations all right I just wanted to see her in person again and talk and originally she agreed but then she backed out she said she just had too much going on in her life and didn't want to didn't want the pressure and wasn't even sure if she wanted to have extramarital fun anymore. And I told her that was fine. I was very disappointed, but it was fine. You know, I would never want her to do anything. She was not 100% comfortable with.

so we kept chatting off and on until fall of 2023. But I got the sense that she was just too nice to tell me to just fuck off. All right. She, she seemingly wasn't as chatty and open as she used to be. It was like, she wasn't as thrilled as she used to be to hear from me. So thinking I was reading the situation properly, I just wanted to give her her space. So I just stopped messaging her. You know, I figured if she wanted to talk to me, she knew how to reach me and I would be more than happy to chat with her and text her back. So I didn't hear from her again for like a month or two.

And I would say around December of 2023, she reached out. Thank you. and text her back so I didn't hear from her again for like a month or two and I would say around December of 2023 she reached out she said I read the situation wrong shocker and that she missed talking to me so we resumed our conversations but I made it a point to never bring up meeting with her I figured she knew that I would meet her at the drop of a hat. Okay. So she wanted to ever meet up with me. All she had to do was say the word. So we continued our conversations, all vanilla in nature until around January of 2024.

We found ourselves chatting a lot and she said something like, that's it, you've convinced me, I want to see you again. I was ecstatic. So I suggested lunch, you know, very casual, no pressure. In February, I had a four-day weekend. So I suggested we meet that Friday or that Monday for lunch. We even chose a restaurant. We got to that point. It was just for lunch. That's all I wanted. That's all I expected.

But she made some very sexy comments to me about fooling around in the backseat of her car, and she told me the restaurant was walking distance to a hotel if things got spicy so naturally my mind went to all kinds of very naughty places but honestly deep down I I just wanted to see her again in person I wanted to see if there was any magic left that could be rekindled and And if there wasn't, so be it. You know, I would have the closure that I didn't originally have two years prior. I was just so, so damn excited to see her. So we had plans to meet on that Friday.

We had the time, we had the place. I had nothing else going on that day. So I told her that I would drive the approximately one hour down to the area where she worked so she wouldn't even have to go far I had the day off so I didn't mind doing a little extra driving especially to see her I mean I would have driven two hours to see her so I was I was primed and ready to finally see Hamilton Hottie Now, Eva warned me to not get my hopes up because I would get hurt. She warned me. But I couldn't help it. This was like my dream girl. Other than my wife, of course.

I had so much fun with her, both in the bedroom and outside of it, that I couldn't help but get my hopes up well she canceled she canceled on Thursday saying that she had work stuff arise and would not have time to get off early as she anticipated to meet me and I believed her and I still do but I told her okay just let me know about Monday because I had told her I had Monday off as well so I told her that if Friday doesn't work we could do Monday it was no big deal so I texted her just let me know about Monday and she liked the message.

You know that little heart icon thingy she liked it well saturday rolled around no message sunday rolled around no message monday morning rolled around no message i'm not gonna lie i i was hurt you know i i was just so excited. I was so, so excited to see this girl again. And it was at that point that I think I truly realized that I am way more excited about seeing her again than she is about seeing me again.

I mean, I just wanted to have lunch with her that's all everyone gets a lunch break at their job i i just wanted to meet her during hers that's all and i was going to drive down to see her and she didn't even send me a message to tell me she could no longer meet you know she if she couldn't make it because something came up i figured i'd get a message like hey sorry it looks like monday is not going to work uh let's get together some other time I'm going to show you what I'm going to show you.

make it because something came up I figured I'd get a message like hey sorry it looks like Monday is not gonna work let's get together some other time something like that but no she she just didn't even message me at all now I know life can get very busy and I'm one of the last people she should have to worry about messaging. So I'm not upset about that. I get it. Life happens. But I guess I'm upset with myself because I once again read a situation wrong. I am way low on the important scale. But if the situation was reversed, I would have texted.

I would have apologized profusely, and I would have proposed a new date to meet. But she didn't. Proving to me that she was not as interested in seeing me again as I was to see her. And I really, really wanted to see her again. It is so disappointing that she just isn't as excited as I am. And maybe too much time has passed, I don't know. I honestly was not angry with her at all, and I'm sure she had family or work-related reasons for not being able to meet with me. But again, if the roles were reversed, I would have contacted her knowing how excited she was to see me.

And I would let her know, you know, I was unavailable or even, you know, I'm no longer interested. You know, I'm sorry, this, this, you know, it's kind of dragged on, but being honest, I'm no longer interested. Now that would have sucked too, but at least it would have been a response. It would have been some kind of closure to this. But I did send her a message on Monday when it was obvious we weren't going to meet. I told her that I wanted to keep chatting with her, but I asked her politely to not mention meeting in person again unless she was truly ready and excited to do so.

My heart would just not be able to take another letdown. Now, in typical Evan fashion, I tried to include humor in my message. You know, I wanted to show that I really, truly wasn't angry. I was just very disappointed and a bit hurt. But I don't think she appreciated my humor because that message was sent two months prior to me recording this, and she has never responded. I'm still holding out hope, though. I mean, I have yet to have another lifestyle connection like the one I had with her. I enjoyed chatting with her more than any other woman I've met in the last three years.

She has proven to be unmatched in the bedroom. Just an absolute knockout. And is just a totally fucking cool person. I don't know.

unmatched in the bedroom just an absolute knockout and is just a totally fucking cool person now she's contacted me for out of the blue on a couple different occasions when i figured i'd never hear from her again so that could happen again my my hope remains alive maybe i'm being a fool who knows i just i wish i met her further along into our lifestyle journey because i would have been allowed to meet with her separately from the get-go and maybe that whole situation at the airbnb with eva would have been avoided. But sometimes the lifestyle is just an evil, unforgiving bitch.

So that'll wrap things up for this episode. If you have made it this far, thank you. I know I had a lot to say this episode, but it was a pivotal story, significant to our story as a couple in the lifestyle, so I wanted to make sure I included lots of detail. So that's it for now. Please feel free to hit me up with any questions you might have. You can find me on kick or Instagram at Evan Deenson. That's E V A N D E A N S O N Evan Deenson. Just be warned, I do not check that Instagram account very often. So if you do contact me that way, it'll probably be a delayed response.

You can ask me any questions you want to ask, propose any topics you'd like to propose that I might be able to include on a future episode of this podcast. But until next time, take care, everyone.