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Here's what's coming up on the show. So, yeah, they both get down in front of us, Nicole in front of me, Rachel in front of him, and they start pulling down our pants. And I was already hard from just the excitement of it.
And ryan i guess was not but when we pulled our pants down i mean everybody just let out of gas or at least me and nicole did because ryan was soft and he was almost twice as big as me oh shit in that moment i was kind of like oh shit uh but i didn't think too much of it until i saw nicole like jaw dropped and that's when it really got bad because he started growing and i looked smaller and smaller compared to him and uh our mutual friend was like no not really i didn't know you guys were still seeing each other uh because she had told me that she was flying out to some nfl game to meet this player that like was in her dms i started pulling my pants down and i knew something was up immediately because she looked at it and like she let out like a smirk and then she took it in two fingers and i forget what she said but she's like oh nice that's better than oh cute yeah oh yeah you know what I think that's what she said oh my god this is the Venus Cuckoldress podcast a place to learn all things cuckolding for the curious for the passionate and for the sexually empowered woman who wants it all.
Let's go. Hello, everyone, and welcome to the show. I your host venus today's episode is absolutely one of my favorites um because this is a sensitive topic for a lot of guys out there and this is a fascinating window into the soul of a lot of men for So for women who are listening to this, this is going to be absolutely fascinating. It's going to be incredible. So a great learning opportunity. It's just, it honestly blows my mind. So many of you will remember the most popular, most downloaded, most listened to episode I have ever done. That was called When She Goes Black.
That was way back in the first season. I think it was episode number six, I believe. I'll put the link in the show notes for today's episode. But I talked a little bit about my experience with black men and my sexual preference for black men. in that episode i brought up i read out this quote that my friend had just casually said in a conversation that we were just having in dms and it was it went something like this when i'm in a room full of people with my girlfriend, and the moment a black man walks into the room, and I see her eyes shift to him, in that split second moment, I feel defeat.
Like he has won. And I am reluctant to accept it. But I accept it. He has won. And it was a little bit more detailed than that, the quote. But I remember reading that and thinking to myself, that was profound. I had never heard of guys thinking that way.
And so I thought, I bet a whole bunch of other guys feel that way and they have they just don't that's not something that they share and so sure enough after that episode aired holy fuck I had so many guys being like that resonated with me so much that is exactly how I feel I was like, this is amazing that there's so many of you guys that feel this sense of defeat. And yet none of you guys are actually like talking about it, really.
So I just felt like I had this very unique opportunity to really peer into the soul of so many of you guys in a very vulnerable and honest understanding of what it is that you are thinking in that moment, the sense of defeat, that you can't compete with these guys. And today's guest is my friend, Mike. I've known him for a long time and his stories, I'm so proud of him for sharing his stories, but his stories are really incredible because he was introduced to this reality of defeat early on and in a very kind of rude way, almost like dramatic.
And I know I laugh a lot and giggle a lot in this episode, but it's funny. But it's also like, it's just so incredible to me to hear about these stories. So I do take it seriously, even though some of the things are kind of funny. But I think it's really an amazing story how he talks about how he was introduced to this reality of defeat and how it has happened repeatedly in his life where he's lost out to Black men and BBC and that this keeps happening and that it's just been frustrating for him, but also very hot.
And one of the things that I would like for listeners of this episode to leave with after you listen to this show is that I would love for you to have this kind of deeper understanding that there's more to you that you have to offer.
If you just think outside of the box of what's expected, what society expects of you, that if you just let go of those expectations and embrace this kind of creativity of, you know, thinking outside of the box of what's quote unquote normal and expected of you as a man, that you have amazing things to offer if you only get to that part of creativity and acceptance. And that's not easy. So that's what I hope people who are listening will leave with with this episode today.
Okay, before we get into it, there's a very, just one very special announcement that I know I hinted at it before that I have something that's really incredible that's coming up and I will be announcing it on Wednesday, February 19th, that's February 19th. I'm going to be announcing this huge project that I have that I'm launching that's coming out on that day. So check my socials, Okay. I'm on Blue Sky at Cuckoldress V and the Venus Cuckoldress podcast on Instagram. And I'm going to be going live on Instagram on February 19th at 12 o'clock Pacific time. That's 3 p.m. Eastern time.
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Okay, joining me on the show, I have my very good friend, Mike, who is going to share his stories about his love for interracial. Welcome the show mike say hello to all the listeners hey everybody nice to be on your show venus i'm so happy to have you here i can't wait to have this conversation i think this is going to be so so so good um you along with many i want to say millions of other guys out there, have this real love for interracial, interracial porn, interracial whatever. And this is a big thing for you, right? Yeah, it is.
I mean, I would say probably all the porn I watch now is interracial. So it's been a big thing. It's probably been a big thing for a while. I'm, you know, late 20s. But I think this is something that started a lot, a lot earlier. And it probably started a lot earlier for a lot of guys. Yeah, I agree. I mean, I keep seeing it in the news and in articles and stuff like that, how wildly popular interracial is. I mean, you just look at like black.com. It's crazy. So how did this all start with you? Is this like a long time thing? And did you feel like a switch was flipped or something like that?
What's your origin story around this interest? um well like i said i'm i'm in my late 20s now um this probably started i want to say well actually i can kind of pinpoint the moment but it is definitely a thing that came from college and i don't think i even realized it at the time it kind of blew up after that. I think I kept thinking about that, the incident, let's call it. It kind of spiraled from there. I can elaborate on that story if you'd like to hear it. Yeah, we're going to get into that. I just want to say that it's funny. I've heard that from lots of guys.
I've talked to a lot of guys over the last decade about interracial and college years are formative like there's some shit going on in college that is flipping the switch for a lot of these guys so tell me what was it for you i can only imagine um okay well it's a bit of a story so i guess let me backtrack i i'm i'm from kind of like the northeast area of the united states so uh and i went to a pretty big school um i won't delve too far into that but it was a that is, it's part of the Big Ten now, which for the people who don't know sports, that's like one of the ten big schools that do college sports.
So football, basketball, all that stuff. And that is relevant because of what happened afterwards.
So this is probably it was in my junior year so this is just after i had turned 21 um i was actually dating this girl for like about three months uh her name was nicole or i'm gonna say nicole uh as a pseudonym but yeah so i was dating this girl nicole and uh you know it was it was really cool i had started dating her before our 21st birthday so like once it happened we started going out together and that's kind of like how our bond was like it was very party and like fun focus i guess you being 21 years old opens up so many new doors, right? Like now we're not partying at, you know, a frat.
We're going out to bars and clubs. So it was definitely, you know, a good relationship and it was a fun one.
But being a fun one, you know, we were a bit more open to doing other things and so well this this is kind of the the incident itself is me and me and nicole decided to have like a double date with uh one of her friends this girl rachel now the thing is rachel is a was a cheerleader for the football team okay and of course rachel's boyfriend was on the football team right and i did not know that i knew she was a cheerleader but i didn't know that was her boyfriend i thought it would just be some random guy and uh lo and behold i meet him on the day of and it's this six foot you know five like massive ripped black dude and now again me being me i i mean venus you know me you've known me for a while i i've always had a little bit of a uh i don't know maybe it's egotistical but i i've got a little bit of alpha feeling to myself and so in that kind of situation i didn't think it.
Now, again, this is before the whole interracial thing started. And so for me, I'm like, oh, whatever, just a dude, I'll talk smack to him. And, you know, I'll level the playing field of both of us. So, but he was a chill dude, very, very chill. And Rachel was super hot.
So like, it was not a bad double date um and we went out to some bars so we went out we had a good time it was a great time we all had you know not too much to drink but enough to have a good night and so rachel was staying at this like there's like a really really nice kind of dorm that they had just built so she was like oh come back let's you know play some pool let's hang out we can hang out in my dorm or whatever so really okay let's go let's go hang out one thing led to another uh through our conversations that night and i mean to make to make a long story short uh we decided on having a foursome i don't know how it really came to be uh i think actually it was nicole that suggested it uh after me and uh i didn't even give this guy a name uh me and ryan me and ryan came back from we were playing a game of cool and then we came back uh to the room and so they were like hey you know here's a crazy idea and so it happened so fast honestly it was like a blur i was like okay i'm you know game whatever this guy is cool and whatnot and uh they just told us to stand next to each other and they were like we'll pull down your pants together kind of like and uh we can you know we'll go from there um so you know me and ryan like whatever you know we're cool um kind of weird because i've never been next to another guy that was nude like that i mean you know i don't think many of us have been in those situations other than like in a locker room but even then it's not like oh dude we're about to get our dick sucked like so yeah they both get down in front of us uh nicole in front of me rachel in front of him and they start pulling down our pants and i was already hard from just the excitement of it and uh ryan i guess was not but when we pulled our pants down i mean everybody just let out a gasp or me and nicole did because r Ryan was soft and he was almost twice as big as me.
Oh, shit. It was a huge like, I mean, I'd watched porn before, obviously. I mean, we all probably start somewhere in high school. And so but the mindset is always like, that's real porn. It's not real. Yeah. Of course those people exist, but there is a reason they're in porn. Like, like it's like the extremes, right? Not everybody is built like the rock. Like I don't expect to see that guy walking around every day. Yeah. But this dude, if he wasn't in football, he definitely had a good career lined up for him porn because he had a huge, like it was, and it was, I mean, I'll see you next time.
ball he definitely had a good uh career lined up for him in porn because he had a huge like it was and it was i mean it was really thick was what i remember i don't the length was one thing but it was just thick and i mean again in that moment i was kind of like i mean we're still drunk a little bit i was like oh shit uh but i didn't think too much of it until i saw nicole like just like jaw dropped and rachel just smiled and then she started sucking him off and that's when it really got bad because he started growing and i looked smaller and smaller compared to him um so yeah it was it was it's not uh okay the ego was really taking a hit at that point um and i guess to paint the picture like i'm i mean i would say i'm not the smallest guy but i am probably a little bit less than five inches so i mean i want to say this guy was probably 10 or more than that i don't i don't know but he was huge i know you used the uh forearm test yes yes he surpassed the forearm of the girl that was oh wow he was he was massive anyway so we continued rachel was sucking him off and then nicole after her senses came back to her she started sucking me off and you know it was great but i noticed that she kept looking over Thank you.
Thank you. Bye-bye.
sucking him off and then nicole after her senses came back to her she started sucking me off and you know it was great but i noticed that she kept looking over and i mean i was again i wasn't too worried i wasn't like oh this guy's about to like steal my girl or something but i was i knew she was interested in it i didn't think at the time she'd ever had one like that i don't i don't think she did and so you know we're getting sucked off whatever and uh i remember this pretty well because i again i don't know if they had talked before what really happened but after we were getting you know head for about five minutes they had us lay down and we were like kind of in doing 69 but me and ryan are kind of like laying foot to foot so we're like in opposite ends and they're on top of us kind of looking at each other right and all of a sudden like i don't know if like like she just started really sucking me off and i mean i came uh which you know that that's not great in that situation Thank you.
Thank you. Bye-bye.
really sucking me off and i mean i came uh which you know that that's not great in that situation it was a bit early yeah it was it was an early bloom um and so rachel was like oh no you know like that's like too too early too early mike and nicole was like oh it's okay it's okay he can he can get it up quick again uh why don't you go go and clean up and we can work on it and i was like okay no problem and so i you know get up i go to clean up and now i come back and they're both sucking ryan off and i would say it's it's literally like right out of a porno they're both like she's like showing him her how to like suck off a big dick that that's literally what was happening in front of my face wow and i just could not get hard because now i was like holy shit that's that's so different what she's doing with him is so different because she was going deep throating she was going deep throating my dick and she was getting his head in and that was about it and so i watched that and they knew that i was watching uh but i i asked nicole if she could like come over and like you know hey i need some help getting hard and she's like yeah just give me a second give me a second um and well after that i'm trying to piece this back in my head sorry so i don't know if it's dramatic or uh or not i mean people would love to go through this experience but i think for a lot of people if you haven't gone through it unknowingly like not expecting that situation to happen it is a doozy oh absolutely i feel like at that moment like a cock was born yeah no no shit um the birth of a cuckold we should make a movie out of this so anyway yep i i watched and uh nicole did not come back to suck my dick she was busy she was very busy she had her hands full and her mouth and her pussy well not yet but that did come that came um well that's that's actually what happened very like next uh rachel said i want to watch him open you up and i was like oh shit i thought i was gonna open her up like i was gonna hug her first because i mean i'm not stupid after having that she's probably not going to feel mine uh yeah and so i was like wait hold on let's uh why don't i fuck her first or i'll fuck you rachel and um and she was like no it's okay you're not even hard yet uh you can you can wait a bit um maybe this will watching this will get you hard and so and so i watched her like lay down and ryan got in front of her and oh my god i mean he stretched the shit out of her like it took i was probably watching for 20 minutes while he just tried to fit his dick in it was crazy and the sounds like i don't know how anybody in that dorm didn't hear what was going on i don't know i mean maybe you have more experience with this but like i had never heard those sounds before yeah i know what you're talking about oh so so yeah so she i mean he started fucking her and again i asked rachel i was like hey i'm hard now could you come over and how about we have some fun too and she was like uh no i'm enjoying watching this uh i think i'm gonna keep watching oh no and now i, now I'm actually cupped, right?
I'm literally watching my girlfriend get dug out and the other girl who was supposed to be sharing or that we're supposed to be sharing is not even interested. And Oh my God, I can't even count how many times, uh, she came like she and Oh, here's the thing. Okay. So one of the other things I really got into after this moment was squirting. In my experience, everything with squirting has always been like, you know, you see this huge spray gush out as the woman comes. That's not what happened in this situation.
so he was fucking her and he was he kind of had her picked up and was like oh that yes yeah he was fucking her in the air so he was holding her in the air and she was kind of a small girl so like like you could i mean it's pretty easy to fuck somebody pretty hard based on the size difference of those two and i heard her coming and she was shaking on him and there was no spray though right so i i didn't think she could squirt in the first place and when his dick came out of her it all just dumped out yeah it was just a huge drop of water and or whatever squirt fluid and i was just shocked because i realized he was just so big that it wouldn't come out plug yeah it was a plug and it was building up inside her and it just all dropped out and i was just shocked and at this point like i wasn't even hard anymore like i was again i'm pretty sure to all the listeners uh this this is a amazing story but in the moment this was not amazing for me it's traumatic right and uh rachel for what it's worth was not helping one bit uh because she was like wow she can come like that have you ever made her work and i was like no and she just like laughed it off and to be honest i mean the rest of the night is really a blur but it was just her and rachel just taking turns fucking ryan and i think at one point i asked nicole i was like hey you know can i get back in on this and she was like to be honest like there's no point in you right now you're you're not going to feel anything uh did you say that oh my god she said it in a nicer way but she was like i'm i'm probably not gonna feel it and she did ask if i wanted to eat her out and so i did eat her out and i ate rachel out towards the end uh wow and i asked for a blowjob at the end which i got from nicole uh but i mean again the damage was done that was probably the most drunk lazy blowjob i've ever received she was just doing a pity blowjob at that point.
Oh, well, I needed the release. So I was thankful either way. But yeah, so that was my welcome to the Kako lifestyle moment. Yeah, I can see that as being very traumatic, but also like in hindsight, very hot.
Yeah in hindsight very hot very very hot and uh i mean i don't tell people about this story obviously i keep the cuck stuff to a kind of to my private life but it's crazy i harbored that memory for so long uh and it was a while before it turned into a hot memory yeah yeah so so what has happened since then because i understand that that's not the only thing that's happened where you've had this kind of like ultimate rejection over bbc like i feel like there's been other other instances where this has happened to you it definitely was the first, but it wasn't the last. It's kind of weird.
I mean, I don't know if it's a self-fulfilling prophecy, but I just, I guess I am into these kind of women that tend to be the type to like black guys. And so one way or another, a situation will always arise, at least in my experience, where that's put to the test. Yeah, I think it's kind of funny because it's true. Like I've known you for a long time. You're just such a great personality and like such an easygoing guy and funny and you get along with everybody.
And, you know, you're a good looking guy and you have these beautiful eyes and like you just, you know, there's no reason why you can't pull in these chicks who are that type and and you do you always seem to like lose out and i'm not laughing at you i'm laughing with you okay sort of laughing at you but anyway um so i i have heard these stories and um not just like i said not just from you but from other guys out there who this happens to them and or women you know they are drawn in by all of those great qualities that you have but like sexually whether you want to admit it you're just not on the same level as these guys these black guys so what happened give me give me all the tea like what happened let me after that close out that story with saying uh we did not last very long after that that relationship ended probably a week after that incident and the the reasoning was pretty poor so i i can only assume what what was the uh trigger oh but i mean you're right i mean look i appreciate the compliments of course i i do try to be uh you know a superstar as for women in every way possible but it's it's kind of tough because you're right like i think that's part of this the reason that we become cucks Thank you.
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Yeah, no, you can't compete with them and that's the thing like i i can only imagine that your ego would be constantly trying to fight that reality yeah very much so i guess that'll that'll lead into where this conflict came up again this ego versus reality so this was a couple years ago two years ago three years ago um i do you know i work out i go to the gym back then i used to go to the gym pretty often covid was kind of like a trigger for hey don't be lazy go and work out and stay in shape so i probably was in the best shape of my life like just playing basketball uh working out playing volleyball like all sports and activities and you know we all had the time so i noticed there was this new girl at the gym who was like smoking she She's like, you've seen her.
So I saw the picture. I was like, damn, she's hot. She's she's very, very hot. And she's she was super nice girl, too. I had talked to her a couple of times and, you know, just in passing. And it was cool.
And then I told one of my friends who was a trainer at the gym, I told him, I was like, hey, do you know anything in passing and it was cool and then i told one of my friends who was a trainer at the gym uh i told him i was like hey uh you know do you know anything about her like and he was like oh yeah she's a she's a really cool chick she's actually she applied to become a personal trainer here if you want i can like like you know actually introduce you to her and so i was like awesome yeah sign me up and so i put my uh you know mike magic magic mike touch to it and we went on a couple dates super fun and i think we were we were like pretty into each other and then one day we went to do like a workout together and the workout was great but we had met up earlier that week and we kind of like we went out somewhere and we were making out of the car, but she had to get home and I had to get home.
So we really couldn't do much else. Also, it was kind of a public place, but our gym is kind of secluded. So after our workout, I think we were both like pretty hot and, you know, bothered.
And we were like, okay, let's jump in the backseat and let's, you know, the backseat of your back seat of your car okay uh yeah and let's let's have some fun and so we were making out and you know again we're both into it it's it was really steamy i bet every single window was fogged up uh which probably was a good thing uh nobody else noticed what was going on but after you know we made out i reached for my kind of like cubby where i keep my condoms and i had nothing left uh so now i'm thinking oh shit like i'm gonna go like i might have to do this beer and i i haven't really spoken to her about the usual pre-sexual right the memo right but i was like you know let's not worry about it uh and i was i was like let me let me take my pants off and let's let's do this so first i took her shirt off and then after that i started pulling my pants down and i knew something was up immediately because she looked at it and gave me kind of like a like she let out like a smirk a smirk giggle and i was you know i wasn't paying too much mind to i was you know on fire at that point and then she took it in two fingers and i forget what she said but she's like oh nice that's better than oh cute yeah oh yeah you know what i think that's what she said oh my god uh and she said that you know i like uh how clean you keep it because i do try try to keep it very clean down there.
Manscaped, right? Yeah, manscaped, very, very manscaped. If you don't own a Panasonic razor, you should get one for all those listening. Yes. It's very helpful. But she looked at it, and she was like, you know, oh, cute, whatever.
And again, I didn't pay too much mind to it i was just like you know i'm ready to dive in here and before she she gave me head she was like oh you know what i think i want to get eaten out first and so i was like sure let's let's get into it and i went down on her and okay i'm not trying to brag here but i think my skills down there are pretty good they should be as you know I don't know. I don they should be. As you know. I have to make up for other things. Yeah. But you know what? I actually do it. I'm more of like a love of the game kind of guy, right?
I do it because I want to be good at it. I didn't do it to make up for lack of size. Right.
Although it became more clear that it was a good thing that i was good at oral or the size would have been an even worse issue yeah so anyway i went down on her i definitely made her calm and she was pretty satisfied and she was pretty wet so i was like yes let's go and then i you know leaned back and i was like okay i just like kind of held my dick and i was like oh uh i don't have like a condom is that okay with you and she was like oh don't worry i have some and then i was like okay that's cool i mean cool venus tell me why and i you know the story but tell me why this girl literally only had magnum xls I don't know.
venus tell me why and i you know the story but tell me why this girl literally only had magnum xls because that's all i have have regular magnums maybe magnum xls and now i'm like oh shit not again like like a flashback of that I'll see you next time. Bye-bye.
and now i'm like oh shit not again like like a flashback of that college experience went in my head and i was like no no no you're just you know you're thinking too much just let it be and i was like you know still like i can fit into a magnum okay um i was like let's let's give it a shot of course i didn't act timid with her i was like oh it'll fit it's fine you were all like yeah no problem no problem let's let's do it and uh she's like okay and so she took it out she rolled it on and yeah it was loose definitely it was loose but condoms are like they're made to stretch right so they're even though the the big ones are still inherently a little bit smaller right like just so that they stretch when they're on and give you that seal but it was still loose and she was like oh maybe you're just not hard enough for it to be tight let me like jerk you off a bit and you'll probably get you'll probably fill it out i was like okay and so she started jerking and at first i was like okay this is good but she jerked me off so fast and hard i was like shocked it was like if you've ever watched a you know porno where somebody's getting jerked off you know at the very end where they're like going hard and fast that was it from the jump basically and i came and she was still jerking off she was still jerking it off and uh like it was a mess because now the cum is like cream because she's been jerking it off so much and it's like drizzling down and i was like oh hold on hold on i like i came and she was like oh oh my god that's too bad i'm sure she was so disappointed and i was like no no it's okay it's fine uh like usually i would have lasted longer but you were going really hard and fast and she's like no i was just trying to make it hard my bad and i was like it's okay i was like maybe if you like maybe let me clean it up and oh you're giving up you weren't giving up yeah i wasn't giving up i was like let me let me clean it up and uh maybe you could like suck it and then get a heart again and then we could do this and she was like uh you know what i've you know it's getting late again uh and we're all sweaty maybe let's try this another time and she was like you know i love the orgasm you gave me though like i can't wait for that again um so get that tongue ready something like that she said cute uh and so yeah so i pulled my pants up and that was kind of the end of that night and i do remember telling you about this so you knew about this as it was happening yes unraveling and i laughed i laughed so much you laughed because at the time again i wasn't thinking much about it right and then i was asking her you know in consecutive times that we met we we didn't go on another date per se we would just hang out at the gym yeah and then i was asking her hey you know or i guess this was afterwards i was texting her and i was saying hey you know when are we gonna do you want to link up in the back seat again and she kind of just like was like oh maybe some other time like i think she said it was that time of the month or like you know she was just pushing it off she's like oh i'm kind of busy this week maybe you know next week or the week after and then i start seeing her working out with this jacked black dude which came out of nowhere and i had seen that guy in the gym before he's you know whatever he's probably a chill dude but you see somebody working out with somebody else once fine whatever twice but when it starts becoming like okay every day i go to the gym this girl is working out with this guy and she's not asking me to work out with her anymore i'm like okay what's going on and then that's when i got the that text it was something like hey uh do you remember that night when you ate me out and i was like yeah i was like when like are you if you're into a repeat like are you looking to do it again and she was like no i was just talking with mike don't worry i didn't say you know your name or anything like that of course that guy's name is mike and um she was like i have a question for you um like you said you didn't have any condoms like what condoms do you usually wear and this is a weird question to ask anybody right why would you ask like what condoms do you usually wear and so i was like oh i just wear like these i wear like trojan ultra lubricated yada yada blah i gave her the full legal name uh so to speak and she was like oh okay she was like um i was just wondering because i mean no offense like the the magnums that i have the the ones that I had, she didn't even call them Magnums, she just said the condoms that I had, they don't really fit Mike.
They're too small. Yeah, they're too small for him. And they're Magnum XLs.
And now I'm putting two and two together, and I'm like, wait a second, she's telling me, one, that she fucked this guy, and guy and two that they're like like he's too big for it too i'm like what is going on like what is wrong with people before you know probably people are thinking what kind of like seductress is this woman like we were very open with each other i try to keep things very open so i guess she was comfortable with yeah telling me that kind of stuff and i i don't think we were not exclusive so it wasn't something like oh you know you shouldn't be doing that we're just like oh we were hooking up and then she's like yeah i was just trying to figure out like like how he is because like, if those didn't fit you and they fit, they don't fit him for the other reason.
Like, and then she was just like, wait, how big are you? She wants you to spell it out. And I was like, what? Why are you asking me this?
And she's like no seriously and again i'm paraphrasing this whole text message shot i mean uh i don't want to expose it to everybody but you know again being as you've seen it she said something along the lines of i i just like he's like the biggest i've ever seen and i'm just like curious as to how big he is and like if you know then maybe i can like compare it or like figure it out and i told her like i was like okay this is back when you know i was still like a1 confident in my dick i said you know i'm six inches right what guy is not gonna say that she literally clapped back and said you are not six inches and i was shocked and i was like yeah i am she was like no you're not she's like you're probably like i was thinking four and i was like are you kidding like four is like that's small I was like i'm not small and then she was like oh this is like dreadful she's like and oh now jumping back a little bit i did tell you afterwards i was like do you think she knew what she was doing with the jerking off?
Like, like, why did she do it like that? And I think at the time you were like, oh no, she probably just saw some stupid thing in porn. And that's why she did that. And then she was like, don't, she was like, don't play yourself.
Uh, you didn't even fit the condom that we used the other day and why do you think i jerked you off so fast you even fit the condom that we used the other day and why do you think i jerked you off so fast the truth comes out i was like what and i remember again i ran straight to you and i was like venus what the fuck is going on right now and she was like yeah i you know i i had to jerk you off super hard because i was not like you didn't even fit the condom like you're not big like and i'm used to bigger dicks and i don't know that was just like a roller coaster of emotions right there you know what i have the messages here let me let me do a quick look up i can tell you exactly what happened I don't know.
right there you know what i have the messages here let me let me do a quick look up i can tell you exactly what happened what i love so much about this story is that during that time i know you were really in denial of your size you did argue quite a bit that you were six inches like you spent days arguing with her about your dick size okay and it was fascinating to me because i could see this like tug of war that reality versus your ego was doing and i i was just like why are you still arguing this with her this girl knows what your size is i guess like you know you got to fight to the death as a man so i was giving it my all but i guess i was doing more damage than good yeah um because she she admitted that you were really good at eating pussy and you gave her really great orgasm so i guess it's just the death of penetration, the death of that i the idea of that that you're like you know a champion in the penetration part piv sex part that was difficult for you it's like mourning the loss of that side of your sexuality i think so yeah i think so that's a good that's a very educated way of putting it well it's fascinating to me because I've been trying to understand all of this that you're that's happening to you and how it's affecting you and like your behavior and and stuff like this is you are not unique in this this is how these like I said these formative experiences happen with guys so often um so tell me so so tell me about these text messages what exactly did she say okay um oh yeah so so let me like kind of read it off she was like hey mike i have like a totally random question for you do you remember that night in the car at the gym yeah i had to blah uh and i said oh yeah i said ha yeah that was a good time why do you ask and she's like right uh and i was like i hope that's a good right she's like sort of uh oh yeah she said you were decent at going down i'll give you that but i'm so sorry to bring this up remember how the condoms i had didn't fit and there it goes to you know me spiraling uh and i was like i don't remember them not fitting i fit those before and she's like might be real it legit looked baggy i'm sorry and she was like don't be upset not everyone is big and then i was like no it didn't that's's supposed to look i'm glad you're finding this you know entertaining because she was laughing and she's like it's okay were you jimmy today the weather is so bad i didn't go and she's like literally stop i had to grip your dick so hard just to make sure it didn't slide off you barely fit and she's like i guess that's kind of what like relates to what i want to ask and i was like uh well i guess it was probably a little loose because it was an xl and i can fit the regular ones but yeah what do you what are you asking for she's like oh my god liar no you don't that's why you made that face when i took them out why do you think it was such a quick hand job i was holding it so tight and going faster because it was sliding so much oh gosh i'm sorry i just don't see why you'd argue that see there you go you were in total denial i was in full denial yeah and she's like anyway so i guess size is kind of important here because the guy i'm seeing right now doesn't actually fit in those and she's like which like wow but also i was curious to know how big you are because you were the last one i did anything with so then of course me texts back saying sorry you're saying i'm small i don't get it why do you need to know that?
I'm so confused. I thought we had a good night. And she's like, yeah, kind of. Sorry, bud, but it's okay. The bud, don't call me buddy guy. Like that, it was so mean. She's like, we did have a good time. Like I said, you ate it really good. You're just not what I'm used to is all. Why do you think we didn't have sex in the car? I'm sorry.
I probably sound so mean, but she she's like how big are you four or five yeah so let me just say that mike it it goes to show that like you are and not a like you're a safe person for her to tell you these honest things about because as a woman, I will tell you that telling a guy that he's small, that his dick is small, even though all these people listening right now who gets so turned on by this whole idea of like SPH stuff, let's be real.
As a woman, if you tell a guy or hint to a guy that his dick is small or somebody somebody else is bigger that is a dangerous thing to do this guy could turn around and beat the fuck out of you hit you turn into a stalker try to ruin your life like this is a dangerous thing for women to do to actually say this to a guy so the fact that she was able to say it to you even though she's you know she was trying to be gentle about it but also direct and firm about it honest about it as well but the fact that she felt okay to talk to you about this even though you guys didn't really know each other all that well I think it just goes to show that like you are the safe person to have that conversation with even though you were denying it so much yeah I'll, I'll fight to death, but I will never be that kind of person.
And again, I think that's like a, you hit it on the head. I think that's a big issue nowadays.
Because I mean, we're talking about big size here, which is very sensitive, but it could be anything, like just the way somebody looks or just denying somebody you know an advancement yeah it could cause a woman to be in a hard spot so i definitely try to make it as safe a space as possible but apparently it was too safe a space no it was good because like what did you learn from that i mean this was an experience after the formative college experience and this was a point in time where you had to really accept at least acknowledge that size was an issue for her and that you were lacking in that department right yeah yeah basically um i mean did it make you like even like even more turned on by interracial porn after that well yeah like i said of course i mean we haven't even gotten to the elephant in the room where i mentioned it briefly but she started you know fucking this black guy so it's once again some big shredded black dude that yeah takes you know what i thought would be mine yeah um rejected rejected yeah and i mean just the directness of it like like i would tell people i'm you know six five six whatever and she's like no you're not and i think at one point it was like let me prove it to you and i sent her a picture of it because i was so furious and i sent her a picture of it next to a ruler and she's like literally like pressing it into your foreskin like it's clear you're like four inches and that was like a very i don't know it was a very spiraling moment for me that's so funny because like i have had and i've said this before on the show but it's so funny because like i have been guys, lots of black guys before, where I've asked them, like, what's your size and your dick size?
And they're like, oh, I don't know. I've never measured it.
And then I have had so many white guys who were like, I'm exactly 5.35 i am exactly 6.12 i am so funny so true it's so true i mean if you're arguing about points like 0.1 0.2 you're you're you already lost this this game and one day i measured it and i was 0.3 bigger so oh my god yeah i learned my lesson with that um yeah and of course to your point she said that the new guy was he didn't even know how big he was he was just exactly and i do remember so vividly at some point like when i was showing you her and i was like oh this is what happened and you were like mike her body is literally made for black guys you remember that right because that's so true these women who you pick up who you pull in because like i said you got all this going for you these are women who have that body that black guys just fucking love like built for black as a thing yeah they're all like i mean i have a thing for you know people who are in shape Thank you.
built for black as a thing yeah they're all like i mean i have a thing for you know people who are in shape and they're all like you know you know athletic in some some regard have the right curves in the right places yeah yeah definitely and good-looking faces too i think a face goes a long way oh So you compete with these black guys for the same women. Right. And yet, you're now in your late 20s, and now you're starting to realize that you cannot compete in the bedroom in the same way that you thought you could. Yeah, basically. That's tough.
Yeah, it's a a tough pill to swallow and again i'm sure that every single woman who is built like this is has been exposed to this yet but for some reason when they meet me their exposure to bbc is not very far away it's not any of my doing by the way yeah so something else happened that's not the last story something else happened right like yeah funny enough i mean let me let me yeah let me close that one out with you know we like you said we argued for a couple of days and she was just like she kind of just put me in my place and said no but but she was still so friendly about it like she was still inviting me to hang out and then work out with them which was interesting but I I know you had mentioned at one point you were like oh why don't you try and introduce them to this kind of aspect?
But yeah, I don't think they were buying any of that. One thing I have learned is that a cacoldress is like a very rare being. Yeah. Because most women, if they're, you know, they find this, you know, big jacked, good looking dude with a huge dick, they'd just rather be with with them yeah and i get that because i think that there's this idea that it's one or the other and not very many women are even unaware of the fact that you can actually have it all right i agree i definitely agree and that's what's what I kind of was trying to explain to you.
And for anybody listening right now who's going through something similar, which is probably a lot of you, just this is why I do what I do. This is the reason why I started blogging about cuckolding. It's the reason why I started podcasting about cuckolding. And the reason why I talk about it so much is because I really want women to know that you can have it all. You don't have to have just one thing in your life as when it comes to pleasure and romance and whatever. Sure, there's other options like poly and stuff like that.
But when it comes to being a cuckoldress or a hot wife, it really is great because you can have all that amazing sexual experience with the big guys if that if you're a size queen with the black guys you if you just absolutely love and adore the black men in your life and you can still have that loving adoring great personality great awesome person husband who is happy to stay monogamous and is really good at eating pussy. You can have all of that at the same time. Like you can have it all, which is like, it feels like having your cake and eating it too.
But that's why I said, maybe just fucking say that to her. Like, just put it out there. Just be like, okay, well, you know, I'm okay with you. You know, it's still sleeping with these guys. Like, I'm good. I think the thing is, it's such an absurd idea to some people, especially younger women. And again, like, these are women in their early 20s, you know, mid-20s. And so I think for some of them, the idea of settling down hasn't even really sat in their head. So that's why they're like, oh, I don't even care about the, you know, the personality of this guy going away.
Like, I can still be friends with him, whatever. But their minds don't think, oh, I can have his personality and this guy's sex. Yeah.
This guy's got a good enough personality and the the sex is amazing so let me just go this route yeah anyway so what happened so is that it's like after that saga what what happened after that okay so i mean the kind of the fallout of that was like again like i said i've been actually actually hit me up kind of recently to work out and uh i didn't i don't know if they're still you know seeing each other i haven't been to that gym in a while but uh i'll probably have an update for you at some point so we'll see tbd um i actually met a girl through a mutual friend that we had and she was very cool she lived in a different state though so i had to fly out just to see her but i have family in that state so flying out there is not too bad um and so we had you know met when i flew out once just So I was just hanging out with them and, you know, we kind of hit it off and things were exceptions.
you know met when i flew out once just to i was just hanging out with them and you know we kind of hit it off and things were exceptionally good because she was the same religion as me which is like a big thing and she's gorgeous and really fun so we met a couple times uh during that first trip and then went on a couple of dates with her other times I visited that, uh, that city and it was amazing, but we didn't have sex or we didn't do any of that. It was just hanging out. Um, the, the last time we went, we like really had a good, like we made out and all that stuff.
And in that last visit that I had with her her which was probably she came back to my hotel room with me and so i'm like okay seal the deal like let's get it and funny enough like again we started with and maybe this was me like thinking overthinking or like pre-planning in my head subconsciously but i made sure to take care of her first right i was like okay let me eat you out let me so i did and she enjoyed it it was great but this time when i took it out uh she was just like oh i'm sorry and i was like what she's like she's like no i can't i'm sorry and again for the the listeners like there are micropenises i'm not a micropenis right i i am small but i am no micropenis so to hear those words i was like what are you talking about like are you kidding me and she was like yeah i'm i'm just like like used to a lot more and i like she straight up just said like it's not going to work with me like it it's not worth it and i was like oh is there anything else we can do and she's like oh you could eat me out again um and i was like okay cool and i was like can i get you know you okay with giving me a head and she was like yeah that's fine uh i could do that and i ended up eating her out for like probably like an hour like it was a long session and then she said she was like so gassed from the orgasms that uh she didn't want to give me head yeah so i was like okay fuck great but she did jerk me off and that that happened um and Um, and then she left.
I mean, we, we talked for a little bit and yada, yada, blah. And then she left. And then I, it's weird because I didn't really talk to her much after that. We did talk like the next day and she was like, Oh, when are you flying out? This, that, blah. But once I got back, she was very, very ghost. Yeah. And again, I met her through a mutual friend. And so I asked her, you know, hey, has, I'm going to call her Jane, right? Has Jane told you anything? And our mutual friend was like, no, not really.
I didn't know you guys were still seeing each other because she had told me that she was like flying out to some nfl game to meet this player that like was in her dms and this is before i even met her the last time right so this is between let's say it's between our third and fourth like like date or meetup she's saying after that third one uh she was getting like flown out which is like mind-blowing it's happening again this is like and look i mean i might plug this a little bit later but i have a bunch of side businesses but when i one of the things that i do is kind of managing like only fans profiles and like social I'm not going to be able to do that.
I mean, I might plug this a little bit later, but I have a bunch of side businesses. But one of the things that I do is kind of managing like OnlyFans profiles and like social media influencers profiles, especially like fitness influencers. And so like I have seen personally the DMs that some people get.
And I mean, it's definitely like if you're popular and you look good, you will get these DMms from pro athletes but it's unexpected that a lot of these people or the the women who get these dms they actually ignore them maybe they have some code or something but they they ignore them maybe they'll like kind of interact a little bit but they generally don't go through with it so like for me now i'm like what the fuck like like somebody's actually doing this like and so yeah she was apparently seeing this and like i won't name any names but apparently she was seeing these this one player or two players and you know my mutual friend sends me like pictures of that of her like at all these arenas in like the vip areas and i'm like what the heck oh no and this is between again us meeting so the last time we met um she had already you know done whatever she did and i mean i did ask that friend like i i was afraid to ask her like if she had um you know told her anything recently um and i haven't texted her i mean again i told you what happened and i haven't texted her since but that friend did tell me or they did confirm to me that uh she was like sleeping with them of course so and it's it's a little bit worse than just like she was like she had slept with like multiple at the same time that's so awesome um yeah uh so has it like solidified for you now this uh this whole thing these are three very critical experiences critical is a great word to use yeah has it solidified things for you now like how has this really changed other than now like your love for interracial porn is off the charts but how has it changed things for you?
i mean it i think after the first time it was kind of like the introduction like hey this is like a thing right i didn't even know it was a real thing until that point and i enjoyed the ideas and the concepts i guess over time but i didn't really experience because no one offered that kind of experience to me until the gym girl right and so after that i definitely like it i mean again i've said this a couple of times uh in this interview but i've confided that information with you and you kind of said hey this is like you're like blossoming like you're learning that this exists and i think the second experience really like that was like the head-butting of me and and my reality i guess yeah which was tough but uh and i think still like i think that's part of like being a cuck like it is tough and it's like i would say like i'm like an egotistical cuck like you gotta put me in my place um but yeah so that that really formed at least an understanding of that internal battle and then the last experience is just like, yeah, like just some sugar on the top in case you forgot.
Yeah. For a lot of the guys, and there's a blog on my website, the Goddess Worshipper blog, which is amazing. And he talks about how in the beginning, when he realized the sense of defeat to black guys sexually he was he was like kind of pissed off and angry about it and i've heard so many other guys have the same reaction where they just fight it they're like no that's it's not going to be like that and like that kind of and that anger and that disbelief and like the suspension of reality, basically, um, reaction, which is common when you're grieving the loss of something.
So that's what I said with the, you're grieving the loss of the idea that this is part of your sexual identity is your ability to satisfy a woman with your dick and just your dick obviously that's not true because you do have other skills we know that you're really good at eating pussy but grieving the loss of that idea that expectation um and understanding like what are the consequences of that i can understand why so many guys have such a a very kind of aggressive reaction in the beginning, but the true beauty is in acceptance afterwards when you realize like, okay, like I may not have the biggest dick.
I may not be able to compete with these guys who do. Um, but I can give a woman all of everything else in different ways.
And like I said before, like that's fucking amazing when you can offer a woman all of everything else in different ways and like I said before like that's fucking amazing when you can offer a woman a kind of relationship where she can have her cake and eat it too and have all of that stuff that's amazing that gives you more worth as a partner than a big dick 100 I know some guys won't understand that what do you mean a big dick is everything of course i'm like no no no no it's not so it definitely isn't uh i can tell you that uh it isn't but it certainly does help it helps in a lot of ways but it's funny because along with having a big dick, these guys have what I, what a lot of people call big dick energy.
And with that comes a, a real sense of calm confidence of like sexual, like no sexual insecurity or anything like that. like, and that translates into sexual energy. So yes, like having a big dick does come across different.
like no sexual insecurity or anything like that like and that translates into sexual energy so yes like having a big dick does come across different even for women who haven't seen his dick yet you can pick up on it uh but so that part yeah i get it it kind of gives you an advantage for these guys who've never had to measure themselves why did they never had to measure themselves because they never had to worry about that like ever you know what it's actually funny that you mentioned that i i mean it's gonna i'm just gonna sprinkle some more about the of that topic in that first experience right like i said um that guy ryan like we were chill we were literally playing pool before that incident happened but when our pants came down the switch that flipped in his head like it was like he turned out of like that friendly person into just like a a cold-blooded killer as how i would put it and like he wasn't talking to me he didn't even he barely acknowledged my existence at that point uh i was just kind of in the way and he was like fully just like owning the moment with these two girls which I think that's what they're really good at and that might be you know part of kind of the allure yes I think so because um there's something that's not said in words but is said in like a the feeling of of the situation that women pick up on and it's hard to ignore that i don't feel so bad for you you were totally tossed aside in that situation but like i said a cuck was born there oh that was a formative moment for you.
Yep. Whenever I talk about it, I always say I got alpha'd basically. Yeah. Out of alpha'd. Yeah. And in a very natural way, which is crazy, but yeah. I love these stories so much. I appreciate you sharing these stories. I know it was not easy. I know that this is literal trauma for you. Not easy for you to have gone through them and not easy for you to have processed everything afterwards.
However, just like so many guys do who are into interracial, who are into cuckolding, this is, from i'll never know for sure because i don't go through this but turning something that is traumatic or uncomfortable or uh just unwanted into something that flipping that into something that is sexy and a turn-on and even though it's still uncomfortable and it's still not nice it's really hot so I think it's fucking fascinating that you were able to do that to flip all of that and you're you've even though it was very difficult and it was horrible in some ways still made you a pretty amazing cuck who is in love with interracial it's like like a roller coaster, right?
As you're going up the roller coaster, you're like, this is horrible. This is horrible. I'm going to die. I'm going to die. And then you go down the hill and maybe you get off the ride and you're like, wait a second, let's do that again. Yeah, yes, exactly. But you got to get brave enough to sit on the roller coaster. Yeah.
And that's a lot of people are not so i really appreciate you sharing this story i have had so many great laughs over these stories over the years with you so thank you you're welcome you're welcome i'm happy i'm happy i could provide some laughs well we're almost out of time, but I wanted to wrap things up before I do. Mike, there was something that you mentioned before about a service that you offer, something like that. Did you want to mention about that? Yeah.
So I, like I said earlier, I actually work with influencers and, you know, OnlyF you know, only fans models, let's say in quotes, um, on with helping them grow their, uh, you know, accounts with helping them, you know, reach a larger audience. I've worked with a couple of notable influencers and, um, creators alike, um, that you guys have definitely heard of.
um so I will leave my contact information with Venus if anybody wants or is interested in hearing more about it I'm happy to provide some services great yes I will put that in the description notes for today's episode again thank you so much Mike for sharing your stories for being a guest on the show. It's been awesome. Thanks, Venus. That's going to be it for today's episode. Thank you so much for joining me. Make sure you go to VenusCuckoldress.com. That's where you can book a private chat with me.
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