Embarrassed to watch??

Don't know that I came to a conclusion on the last post... But in the end. I'm going to put that more prominently on my profile and also make that a point to tell partners as well. I've said it before, but I need to make sure it's emphasized if it's a turn on that big in my eyes. See a few ladies and couples say they like the same things, lets me know I'm not crazy, and definitely never been a creep. It's all in my head.

I find myself most similar to @MsMolly & @Onehorneywife. It turns me on so much to watch. That moment of watching can easily make me cum. At one point I was watching her go down on me, and I'd come close to cumming, and I'd close my eyes and immediately lose that feeling. So that's clearly my hot button.

My problem is what you said @Mayhem. I'm overthinking about, what she is thinking about, while watching me watching. I guess this is bolstered by something we are all kinda iffy about, watching while you're not participating. I'm not sure where voyeurs rank on the swinging scale, but single male voyeurs are usually seen as creeps. Even the women here saying they like to watch, feel like creeps when watching others. I guess I'm carrying that over and expecting that's what she'd be thinking, before I ask or we have that discussion.

As for you @RK... I'm going to lie and say no... no I didn't notice a thing. So it's only right to get another refresher. That's two excuses tonight to find my way over there!! You pick

I'm a voyeur and precisely because it turns me on so much, it is not always easy for me to be upfront about that. I mean, I tell people and that's fine, but turning my full attention to something and letting it arouse me? I can sometimes be a little shy about that, especially with new people or new situations. I'm also kind of rigid about making sure I have consent. Plus, I've noticed porn embarrasses me a little. I mean I mostly don't watch it because it's unconvincing, but the act of watching it also embarrasses me.

I'm not sure I'll ever overcome being a little weird about my voyeurism, but a playmate has figured out how to use it as a turn on, probably because he likes making even the wildest things feel normal. He sends very short clips - too short for the embarrassment to kick in - and he sometimes has me hold the camera, because he's discovered that it adds to the experience for me.

As far as others, I'm not really an exhibitionist, but since I understand liking to watch, I'm totally okay if others do so. At clubs, I've sometimes had to close my eyes if too many guys were standing too close with their dicks in their hands, but that was because it was distracting, not because there was anything wrong with it. In private, it isn't distracting at all.

TTV - You commented about how you enjoy looking to see the expression on her face when you play. You commented about what she might be thinking when she looks at you watching her. Why do you think that a girl wouldn't want to enjoy your expressions like you do hers?

Kind of reminds me of if you tripped and fell and people saw you, and you'd be thinking to yourself people are looking at me like I'm a dolt, but if someone were to fall and you saw it, you might actually be thinking, "That poor person. Hope they didn't get hurt."

In other words, put yourself in the other person's shoes and ask what you would be thinking if you were them, and it's a good chance, that is what they're thinking too.

TV.. didnt you notice the soft lighting-on night stand and candles in home. Hmm guess you missed those back in Feb as you were so busy in new place..

Its all good we get it... thats what we always do and enjoy!

second , third time are a charm!

I love watching my wife when playing alone or with others. It is a complete turn on for me and her also. I find it takes me much longer to reach my peak if I can't see her when we are playing. I love looking at her expressions as she cums and watching her give a BJ is such a turn on. I would think if I was watching a couple in a club fucking and was standing there with my cock in my hand it could be either taken as creepy or a turn on for the couple that is fucking. Depends on them. Do what works for you.

All my life, it has taken me a considerably longer time to cum from oral sex than normal sex. I mean if I'm really up and going, sex can be minutes. But no matter how horny I am, it's going to take 10-15 minutes before I even think about cumming from a woman going down on me.

This weekend on a mini vacation, me and a lady are enjoying the most sex filled weekend of my life. I don't know what got into her. But I'd cum, she'd roll over, and literally say "Be ready in another 20 mins". And I'll be damned if she wasn't tapping my shoulder, 20 minutes later. But each and every time she gave me head, I came in 3-4 minutes. No matter how drained I was...

It wasn't until we actually opened up some blinds that I noticed, when she sucks me in lower light, I watch the entire time. The visual of her sucking me, makes me explode faster than ever. But with the lights bright, I'd look to watch her, and almost feel like a creep and close MY eyes. Almost if I was embarrassed to be so into watching it.

So I take notice the next few times we have sex. And yes, it's the same thing. During sex, I like to look/watch. From her toes to her calfs to watching me slide in and out.... Her stomach, breasts, neck, lips.... But what I really love is watching her face full of pleasure. UNTIL... she looks at me, looking at her. Instantly I shy away from her gaze again......

Putting all things together, it's clear that the visual of sex is turning me on. But I also feel like a creep, even though it's me, because it's almost like a shouldn't be watching and enjoying. "What is she thinking of what the hell I'm thinking? Is this normal?" I've also felt like this as a voyeur at parties. Unless the couple specifically asks me to watch, I feel like I am waaaaaaaaaay too into watching, for this to be normal for me standing here with my dick in my hand.

Now that you've read my new novel lol, my question is, does anyone else experience or has in the past? How'd you overcome it? Ladies, do guys do this often? What goes through your head when a guy is watching you like a porno with a glazed look of lust on his face?